Grrr

Babe my Internet isn't working!! So freaking annoying! I have a bunch of things to tell you.. I hope it starts working soon!!

How's uni going for you? Prepared for your trip to Phoenix? :)

To much time had past!!

My love school is attacking me!!!
I had to drop my bio lab...my ambitious self has to also be realistic haha!! So five classes it is =)
I plan on getting an A in at least 3 of those classes and a B in the other two. Cross your fingers for me please. How are you doing with school and work? I still have no job to report on but I will be applying for a few scholarships and I pray to God He gives them to me. It would be great to get the scholarship because I could save some of the money for this summer and go to Costa Rica for an 8 week summer program that I really want to do. My Spanish reading and writing is getting better but God knows that it still needs a lot of work. Hopefully with this program I will be able to really say I am bilingual =)! Plus, Costa Rica for a couple of months would do me good.
I guess my life is coming a long pretty well now that I have been home a few weeks. But there isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss you or wish that I could be sitting next to you having fika. I felt so bad that you really need to talk the other day and I was nowhere to be found. People here don't understand the concept of fika, they always want to go out to eat from one of the 100's of fast food places here. Which has actually started to gross me out. And they don't know how to just sit and talk, they always finish there coffee like in a minute and want to leave to do something else. It makes me sad! Today I read that article Nickolas posted and I just loved it and tears came to my eyes and I wished so hard I could be there again. I am so happy that Angie is here with me but now that school is actually getting crazy busy, we never see each other. To be honest, although she is a great help, she too doesn't really understand why I miss it so much. Maybe I will go back and apply for a job in IKEA haha!! I would do anything to go back and live my life the way it was when I was up there.
My sorority life is also picking up. It has its good and bad, its weird and cool! I will deff keep you updated with it ;)!!
I love you so much and I miss you so much!!
Sometime I am with my international student and I wish I was in her shoes back in Sweden. But I am sure that sooner than anyone thinks, I will be back up there hugging and kissing all of you guys again!!
And of course dancing our heads off!!
xoxo!! 

Uh oh

Babe, I'm freaking out!! Our lease is almost up and we still don't have a place to stay after next Sunday :( Could def need a pepp talk right about now!! :/

Under Pressure

Six classes?? My god you're such an ambitious student!! I only have four and I'm drowning in assignments, hw and readings at the moment!! I know what you mean about liking the pressure of having to accomplish something - I like that pressure to - as long as the pressure doesn't exceed ginormous measures... I miss you, my friends all over the world and my family a lot and school and work def keeps things rolling a little better. I've found some amazing people down here that I love to hang out with - but I miss my old friends too.. I would do anything for a fika with you right now!!! 

Tell me more about your exchange student!! :) 

Love you! xoxo

School American Style "finger to eyebrow"

Love, I am so glad to hear that you got the job!! =)
These days, I wish I had your determination to find a job..but i simply don't feel like job searching. I am very grateful that my parents are okay with me not really working this semester. But before I get into all my school stuff I want to know what you did for your Birthday. I know it was a while ago but we haven't really spoken to each other in a while. I bought those triple Oreo's i'm going to send you. Hopefully they will be in the mail by tomorrow. I am not sure if you will like them because they are a bit sweet but they are so different form the one's in the past that you must try them at lest once. Plus, if you don't like them I am sure the kangaroo's will enjoy them lol =).
I started school last week. I love it!! I love feeling the pressure of having to get something done and having things to do everyday other than party. But it is a bitter sweetness since it is the anniversary of my first full day in Europe. I celebrated by not remembering, running late to my bio class, and having the worst lab. The good thing about facebook is that everyone is mentioning last year lol.
My bio class is going to be so much fun, I think?! You know I love these different classes and learning things that I hadn't studied before. This specific bio class is about human biology and the teacher has a P.HD in neuroscience and biochem, something around those lines. Anyways, that is only one of my 6 classes. Thank God I love school. 
I have also been spending a lot of time with my international student. She is great! I took her shopping this weekend. Amazing sales, I must say. She also got to meet most of my family and she and her friend (also exchange student from Spain) stayed the night at my house. I think they liked my parents and the house. As far as my brother goes, I think they like him too. It was great having them here but sometimes I wish you could be here meeting my parents and staying the night. The same for the rest of my friends that are in Europe. I want them to be here so bad. Another plus side of having such a busy school schedule means that I don't have time to be wishing I was back in Europe, there is only extra space in my head for missing you guys and nothing more.
I want to hear more about Assie life and your amazing details!!
love you and miss you
xoxo

Yaaay!

Love, I got the job!!! I came in for my training yesterday and they wanted me to stay :)) I took a picture of the dress that I work in at Stingray the first night I was there. It's a bit blurry cause I'm in the dressing room at work but I'll take better later :) and you can google QT Gold Coast + Stingray and you can see what the place looks like. I think the address is something like http://qtgoldcoast.com.au but I'm not sure (on my phone right now). Anyway. I have only told a few people yet and I wanted you to be one of the first ones I told :))

Pre-birthday jitters

Hey love :) I can imagine it being weird going out at home again after a year in Europe. I remember when I got back to Europe from the US and I hated it. I even called one of my besties up (who I wasn't out with that night) and told him about everything that was wrong with Sweden... Haha. I guess it takes some time getting used to what you've grown up with once you get back from an experience like ours..

Has your Spanish girl gotten over the food-sickness yet?? Is she enjoying her stay so far??

Tomorrow is my birthday and it feels pretty strange to be honest with you.. I mean I have spent several bdays abroad, but it's always a little weird when you're still new to a place and you're not SUPER close to people yet.. You don't want to force people to celebrate your day, at the same time you kind of want everyone to just be there for you and celebrate your special day.. You know what I mean? I'm def one of those kids who milks their bday to the fullest. If someone doesn't want to do something I'm like: But it's my biiiirthday :O hahaha. ok. I've only really milked it with my family and Liam. But still. My bday is very special to me. My mom is staying up late tonight so she can say Happy Birthday to me when I wake up tmrw.. I'm so happy I'll get to see her face :)

Are you excited about starting school tmrw?? What classes are you taking this semester?

I'm not entirely sure what's going on with that job actually. The boss called me Friday night and said he wants me to come in on Thursday night.. But I didn't get if he wanted me to come in for more training (as in I got it) or for another trial... So we'll see on Thur night I guess :P

Love you, babe! Ttys :)

Crazy El Paso!!

Love...you are very right, Skype Fika is way over due. Some time next weekend would be perfect for me?! I finally went out last night for the first time since i have been home lol. It was crazy!!! The girls danced so nasty, and the boys , lets just say no my type. lol lol!! the craziest part was when some girls started fighting in the middle of the dance floor..i mean like punching each other and pulling each other hair. It was so strange for me. But I have to admit it was fun, i bumped into an old high school friend and an old co-worker. It was nice to see familiar faces.
I have been spending so much time with Angie, she has been a great since I arrived!! She comes to my house every other day and we go to Las Cruces together =)!! Plus she understands me more than anyone over here these days. My international student arrived on Wed. Her name is Maria. She is like my little-live-piece of Europe for the next nine months. I hope she likes it here but I think it will be hard for them to adjust. She is under 21 and can't drink and the 18 and over clubs aren't so good here. plus we get IDed everywhere we go. But I am sure we can find a way for them to have a blast here =)!
I start school on Wed, I am so excited. I think i will join a fraternity and find a place where I can do some community service.
I want to know if you got the job wearing high heels =)!!
I am sure you are doing well and having an amazing time!!
Love you
xoxo

Cause I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it ;)

Hey love!
I realize I've been super bad at writing here in the past couple of weeks. It's just been hard trying to get everything together when you're in a new place.. I hope you're doing well! A need a long Skype fika with you soon. It's way overdue!!

How's everything coming along with school? Has your mentoree arrived yet? I can't believe we're in the middle of August!! It's been almost a year since we first met. Can you believe that?? I know both of us have done a ton of things since then, but it still doesn't feel that long ago (except it also does :p ).

I'm on trial for a job at a lounge bar on Wed and I think they're gonna ask me to walk in heels. Haha. You know I never do. It'll def be an interesting experience. I hope I don't fall flat on my face :p

Anyway. About to head out for dinner. Talk to you soon, I hope :)
Love you!!

How exciting!!

Love it is so great to hear that you are loving it down there. It reminds me of when i first arrived to Sweden. i know exactly what you are feeling =)!! It's such an exciting first few days!!
I am actually looking forward for our internationals to arrive..I am hoping cool people come over. I spoke to the lady at my international office and she said about fifty-five internationals were coming in this year. It doesn't seem like many but for being NM and the dessert lol it is quit a few.
I just finished talking to Alvaro and Julia and one of the girls from Poland, talking to them really makes me feel so much better. These past few days have been some of the saddest days for me. This change isn't easy or fun but there are little things that make me happy, like talking to my friends from Europe or writing in this blog.
I keep remembering how it was hard to leave your friends and I keep trying to remember that I was once having a hard time leaving home too but i don't seem to remember. Do you think it is possible to completely forget ones old life?! Sometimes I think I was so happy up there that I just let myself forget and I keep trying to remember but nothing comes. Everyone's life here seems to be good. My parents are happy, my family is happy and I seem to just be lost. I don't even know if I want to finish school right away or if I should live at home. I should also talk to my dad about tuition and my aunt is try to set me up with someone. These are the things that I am bothered with here at home. What is my life coming too haha!
I hope we can talk on skype soon or even on fb.
I love you...and please keep telling me about your amazing adventures in the land down under.
xoxo

Morning, mate!

Hi love!
Right now I'm sitting on our balcony, on the 18th floor, looking at the ocean to my right and the bay to my left. We have an amazing view from up here! I wish my computer had Internet so I could show you everything! :((

O-week started yesterday for us study abroad students. First we got some info, and a guy from Extreme Adventures came to talk to us about all their trips. Then they hosted a smaller BBQ -it was just hot dogs in bread we use for the toaster(!) and then a beer/wine. But it was nice enough I think. A lot of the students live in Griffith Village, which seems to be kind of like Bjornkulla. They're already partying it up like crazy out there. Reminds me so much of all of you.. I met this guy from Missouri that looks and acts like Eric almost. Haha. Except I like Eric way better! So funny. And there was this girl from Cali that looks like a younger Lindsay Lohan pre-drug/alcohol abuse - back when she was still a cutie. And then I met a bunch of other ppl, of c, that didn't remind me of anyone else :p

Things are a lot different here than in Sweden. Can't put my finger on it just yet, without just explaining the differences I've noticed so far. I guess it's kind of a culture shock in some ways, although nothing really surprises me anymore by just being different. It's like: "oh, is that how they do it here? Ok let's go!"

Haven't really gotten into party mode yet. I guess it's cause I don't live in the Village and Jamie is gone / Nurpie isn't here. I hope once I get to know even more people in school I'll be starting to go out. But for now there's no rush. I'll have plenty of time to wreck my liver in the next 12 months ;)

What are you going to do until classes start? Are you moving out or staying with your patents for next semester?

Ttyl Hun :)

a Bitter sweetness

I am glad to hear you are getting along very well. I saw some of the pictures you uploaded to facebook...it looks amazing!!! I would love to be in a parodies right about now.
Yesterday my family came  to the house and we had a BBQ. It was so nice that they were all here. It was good to see them, it wasn't many people and it mad happy that not everyone showed up. It was a nice and relaxed evening. I have to admit that as happy I was to see my family all I wanted to do was be at "HOME." I miss Poland and my roommate, I miss being close to you guys and being in the same time zone.
I feel like I am walking on eggshells here, I can't just relax.
I might go crazy lol...keep telling me about your adventures and everything going on with you!!
i love you
xoxo

Surfers

Hey love!!
I should be sleeping, but I'm totally jet lagged atm. I slept for 13h after I got to the apartment yesterday. Woke up at 1am and watched movies and hung out with my new roommate. I thought I was only going to take a nap. HA. Getting into Surfers Paradise yesterday was totally unreal. It felt like I was in paradise!! I was too tired to take pictures yesterday, but I will later today - promise :) Anyway. I guess I should try to get some more sleep before it gets to bright here. Love you!!!

Airplane ride to our lives?!

Love...I am home!!
After a panic attack, a few tears, and a lot of mix emotions, I am happy to be home. I got some sad/ bad news as soon as I got in my car...I have to tell you about it lol! I honestly thought that it was going to be hard and horrible but it isn't. It was nice to see my family waiting for me. They were so happy to see me and they are so proud of me. my house is homie and clean. I think it will be a while till I stop talking about Poland as my home but I know I will be okay. I can't describe the feelings I am feeling, I am happy. It is def a finger to eyebrow moment. My brain knows that I am so far away from my European life but I don't feel distant from you at all. I know it will be a while until my family and I learn to understand each other but I am excited to see them. As far as my friends go, they are my friends and I will see them when I can. =)!
My flight from Madrid to Dallas was so bad, it was shaking and crazy...it was like shacking me back to my reality lol lol!!! In the Dallas airport I meet a little girl that loves to travel, she was so little and interested to hear all about my European life. In those moments, I realized that I am truly blessed and that I can't wait to tell everyone of the tings I learned . I want to inspire everyone to do what I have done and if they can do more, by all means.
You and me are very blessed to have the opportunity to leave home and see different things even when it is hard leaving and coming back.
As far as time change goes..I am still stuck in Europe. i also know that it will not be so easy being so many hours apart to chat which really stinks because i miss you so much. but we will figure out a time table!!
have an amazing first day in assie!!! I can't wait to hear about your airport jump adventures and everything in between!
i love you =)!!

See you later love :))

Have a safe flight tmrw, love, if I don't get a chance to talk to you before you go tmrw/later today!! When will you be back in El Paso, Texan-time/Sthlm-time? I should be arriving 6:30am eastern Aussie-time on Friday, so 10:30pm Thursday Swedish time or 4:30pm (Thur) NYC time.. haha it sounds like we'll be almost a day a part - but I guess I can tell you what the future is like ;) haha. I already miss you tons so I know I will miss you even more when we're no longer in the same time zone (ok you were an hour ahead in Poland) and can talk as frequently. But I think we can make it! Def looking forward to a Skype fika soon!!!

Love you!!

me too!!

Love, i miss you too!!
As far as Madrid goes it is amazing..I love being here with Dory and Ana. The first few nights I was here I stayed with juampa and silvia...I had a great time with them. Then, I spent some time with guss and his friends that went to Stockholm. It has been an amazing few days. As much as I have said that I don´t want to go home, I have noticed being here that that isn´t true. I want to go home now. I want to sleep in my bed and see my family and friends. I want to go back to my reality.
I can only imagine what you are going through, but in a few days you will be talking to your family on skype or facebook and it wont even feel as if you are a world away from them.
I can´t wait for us to talk as well, I feel like I have so many things to tell you about these past few days.
The best thing is that once we are both situated we an have a skype fika =)!! something we haven´t done in a long time.
I will post pictures soon.
I love you and talk to you as soon as i can!!

Miss you!!

Hi love, sorry I haven't written in a few days but I've been busy with ESHRE and coming down to Gotland!! How is Madrid?? Do you absolutely love it?? Gotland is beautiful as always and I love being here with my family. I dread tomorrow morning!! I already had to say "see ya later" to some of my family but tmrw I'm saying goodbye to my mom, grandpa, uncle and cousin and my grandma :(( poopy! Don't even want to think about it!! Annnyway, I want to see some pics from Madrid already!! :D and I want to talk to you!! Have so much to tell you since last time we spoke! :p

Here's a picture from last night's celebration, it's my mom to the right of me and her cousin to my left :)

The day has finally come..

Hey Love,
Good Morning...well the day has finally arrived that I will leave Poland. A place that has been my home for the past f months. After a lot of packing and re-packing, some tears and a bit of sweat lol, I was able to fit everything in my luggage =)! It is hard to imagine that ones life can actually fit in bags and simply be shipped around. It reminds me of the times my mom tells me to be simple. She says it because I think to much and I worry so much sometimes but if ones life can actually fit in a bag, it makes me really wonder if life is as complex as we make it sometimes.
I am heading to Madrid in about 30 minutes, i am so excited to see everyone down there. I have to admit that I miss you guys so much and I haven't even left yet.
have to finish doing last minute packing and other little details before I leave.
I hope you have an amazing day at work...Love you =)!
xoxo 

2nd day

Goodmorning love!
I'm on my way to the fair again. Another early morning. Today I'm supposed to handle the press all day. My boss promised me they will move me around when they need me at different places. I know it may seem weird to NOT be content with "just" being in the press area - BUT I was hired to do everything and that was the position I wanted. I like to be able to help out as much as humanly possible when I work, so I can feel that I've made a difference - not just sit on my tush all day. But I can't deny my ego liked the fact they fired the other girl from her duty in the press room because I was better equipped to handle it ;) she was NOT happy last night. She is a journalist student and she didn't get what she did wrong.. I felt bad for her at the same time. It's never fun to not live up to your supervisors expectations!!

I know what you mean with refusing to take done the map. In a way you tell yourself that as long as it's up on the wall you're not really leaving. You don't want to let go of what has been your home for the past 10 months..

I have a hard time commiting myself to packing up the last things too.. but I'm running out of time.. Well I guess we both are. Excited to go to Madrid tmrw?

Love you!

Work Work Work =)

before

after

That is so early, but at least you got the position you wanted!! Plus, you sound like you really like your job and that is always a plus =)! I can't wait to hear about all the things you will do this week, keep me posted, for sure!

...I woke up at 12:30 and the only reason i got out of bed was because I had to pick up my clothes from the laundry mat lol lol.  If it were up to me I would have stayed in bed, the weather is so bad here. It has been raining for the past three days, none stop. I was really looking forward to amazing-hot-last days in Poland but no, I got rain instead lol. The plus side of the rain is that I have got most of my packing done. I was able to put my huge "orange baby" inside one of the luggage's, YAY for me!! My roommate and I have been taking down the things from the walls and from the door, it was so sad last night right before we went to sleep. We looked around the room and it looked so empty. The only thing that is on my wall is my map of Europe. I refuse to take it down. I look at it and I look at all the places I didn't go to and to all the place I did. It really was an amazing year for me but I am also ready to go home. I talked to my mom on Skype yesterday about going home, school, students loans, and everything about my return home. It really is time to get there and get my life rolling again.  I mean it really rolled here too but not in the way I need it to back home lol..if you know what I mean lol lol!!
There are so many things I want to do once I am home other than school, I really want to go to California, San Antonio, Australia for Christmas, my road trip next summer, and I fell that I can't really have full control of the situation until i actually get home. In the mean time my brain just keeps thinking about what I need to do and what I should do and how I will do it.
I may not be excited to go home but I am definitely ready =)!
I love you and I hope you had an amazing time at work.
xoxo


 

1st day

Hey love :)
I'm on my way to the congress and it's about 6:45am. Had to wake up at 4:30 this morning!! Inte cool! Yesterday we had the mandatory pre-education to get all the info necessary for these next few days. The woman in charge was VERY thorough.. Haha. I'll tell you about it later!! I got the position I wanted btw :) I'm going to be directional and do the press! The directional pretty much do everything. I'll be a social butterfly in every corner of the fair :)

Ttyl darling :)

YUMM

Hey love!
Just got home from having a drink at Friday's with Jess. Love sitting outside with a drink in my hand and friends on my side this time of year! People are so much happier in Sweden during the summer :p and all the cute boys come out ;) haha.

I was having dinner out with my mom and my grandpa earlier tonight and the food... YUMM!! Pure heaven!!

What have you been up to today? I'm glad you were able to be there for Julia. Coming back from a year like the one you had is not easy. It will take a lot of time and it's good you all have each other to lean on.

When are you leaving for Madrid? Has anyone else joined in on all the fun?

I want to tell you about my new plan for the next few years!! Gaah! Hate not having Internet on my computer..!

Smell ya later ;)

I love Skype!!

I definitely know what you mean about spending as much time as your can with your mom and the rest of the family.  I did the same thing right before I left. Right before I left, I still had no idea how Skype really worked and if I would even us it. Little did I know that it would be the one thing that kept me close to my mom and family until I returned. Of course it is not the same but it helps a lot.

I got a bit sick yesterday evening, I don't know if it was something I ate or if my body is recovering from this weekend or if I am just missing you guys too much. Thank God that this morning I feel better and I am looking forward to spending some time with the girls here in Poland =)! I never thought I would get so close to them here, for the simple reason that it is so hard to leave you guys in Stockholm, and i didn't want to go through it all over again but i am starting to realize that i love the girls here so much. I am sad that I have to leave them too =(!
I think the worst thing I did when I got to Poland was that I had my guard up, and I stayed as distant as I possibly could. Now, I realize that I shouldn't have done that. I had dinner with three amazing girls on Tuesday. Girls that are so happy and filled with life, just like me, but I don't think they will ever know that because I never gave them the chance to get to know me like I did while I was in Stockholm.
Yesterday, I also Skyped with Julia. it was so nice to see her, I mean I had just seen her a few days before but it made my day =)! She is also going through a lot now that she is home and I was so happy to have been able to talk to her and be there. Even if i really wasn't there. It really does make me grateful to have things like FB and Skype.
Can't wait to hear all about your conference, i am sure it will be great!!
I love you

Errands errands errands

My god, McDreamy was such an asshole in that episode, don't you think?

I'm feeling better, but I'm still all muckos:y in my throat :p inte cool! How about you? How are you doing?
I'm going out shopping for things for my trip today. Need to get a "travelsheet" (you should look into getting one! Its tiny and made of silk) and a new adapter, because my old one didn't work when I tried to put the power cord in it :s I'm going to the tailor with my gold jacket as well and I'm also shopping for my grandma's bday with my mom :) We're spending the entire afternoon and evening together. I know it's silly, but I'm really happy to spend time with my mom these days. Maybe it's that I'm trying to maximize our time together before I leave.

Anyway, I think I'm meeting up with the boys when they get back from Gothenburg in a few days. :) I haven't had the chance to see them and say see you later yet.

Ohh btw I was looking on Griffith's (my school) website yesterday and found out which textbooks I need for my classes. Where do you usually find your books? I was looking at
Amazon but I was thinking maybe you know a better site?

Oh and I know I've said it before but I'm really happy I got to see you again before I leave for Aussie :)

This weekend this "gang" is getting together again for the Doc congress! Can't wait!! Haha

Finally saw the last episode of grey's

It's a regular day, here in Poland. I woke up and started watching TV lol. Well, I finally got around to watching the final episode of grey's anatomy. I have no idea what is going on with me the past few weeks but i am so emotional, i cried during the show. I have cried during every other show I have watched in the past month. Maybe i am entitled to be a bit emotional, but it makes me feel silly. I hope all my emotions are acting like this because i am leaving soon and nothing else is wrong. I know you already know this but if you start to feel emotional and want to talk, you know I am here =)!!
I haven't talked to you on Skype or on FB.

How are you feeling?? Ready for work anytime soon??
Love you...can't for our next conversation =)

Finger to the Eyebrow - for sure!!

Hi love! 

I'm so glad you came this weekend :) Midsummer's wouldn't have been the same without you!! 

I know things feel like crap right now, after saying goodbye to all the people you love in Björnkulla. But you and I both know you should always finish on top! Finish while things are still good! You will see these people again some day. Perhaps it will never be the same, but that doesn't mean it won't be great. Different is not necessarily bad. It's just not the SAME. 

Whenever you feel like talking, you know I'll be here for you. Always!! Love you! :)